Childhood Revisited

“sure, you turned out pretty good, but is there anything you wish had been different about your childhood? if you have kids, is there anything you wish were different for them?”

if there’s anything i would like to change about my childhood, that is i should have attended summer classes or boot camps to learn new skills which is something i can be proud of. now, i don’t have any talents to share with others which is kinda frustrating. i don’t feel there’s anything special about me. i can’t play an instrument, cannot sing nor dance and does not play any sport. my vivid memory of my childhood summer is playing outside or watching cartoons at home. i know it isn’t too late to learn something new but then i also realize that the older you are, the more scared you are to try new things. learning at a young age is the best time because there’s the sense of adventure in trying out new things.

i have lots of dreams for my baby boy. i often ask my husband the question “what are your dreams for baby?” and he said that he don’t have any special dreams for him. but for me, i’ve got lots of things in mind. sometimes, i want him to become a chef so he can cook yummy dishes for us. or he can be a professional at any extreme sports and redbull will sponsor him. hahaha! i want him to learn how to swim so he can enjoy going to the beach and swim with his friends in the open ocean, unlike me just sitting at the shore. and for his survival too. i want our children to be the better version of us. i have mixed emotions thinking that our kids will grow up and go to a university and leave us. but that’s life. there’s a big world out there waiting for him. like any loving parent, i’m always here to support him in whatever decision he will make.